Like a ziploc bag..

I'm solid; but you can see through me sometimes...

-Mitchelle Davis

5 days is too long...

My Mama mapped out the road that she knows
Which hands you shake and which hands you hold
In my hand-me-down Mercury, ready to roll
She knew that I had to goAnd hangout, make lots of noise
And lay out, late with a boy
Make the mistakes that she made 'cause she knew all along
I was already goneI was already goneI was already gone



Life is a runaway train you can't wait to jump on
They say the first time won't ever last


But that didn't stop me, the first time he laughed


All my friends tried to warn me the day that we met
"Girl, don't you lose your heart yet"


But his dark eyes dared me with danger


And sparks fly like flame to a vapor


Fire in his touch burnin' me up, but still I held on 'cause


I was already goneI was already goneI was already gone

I would say sorry I haven't written in a while, but I'm sure nobody is sad about that..
Tonight I am hopefully going to Clevelands game, but that could change.. Saturday is the Miss HHS pageant, which I am excited for, but I dont know why.. lol GO KELSEY!

Life has been good in the past five days.. I am super super happy, everything seems to be falling into place.. Last period we made muffins, blueberry to be exact.. Movie night friday!! Freddy vs. Jason! I haven't seen it yet but I already know the ending:(

Im bored already..

Chase Coy/ Dear Juliet... he equals love..

Ron Pope- Drop in the ocean
(that ones a life changer right there)

NEVER SHOUT NEVER....

Sing it loud...

all people you should check out..

Even if the moon fell down- Chase Coy!!!

Everytime I see your smile it makes my heart beat fast

And though it's much too soon to tell

I'm hoping this will last'

Cause I just always wanna have you

Right here by my side

The futures near but never certain

At least stay here for just tonight

I must have done something right

To deserve you in my life

I must have done something right along the way

I just can't get you off my mind and

why would I even try?

Even when I close my eyes I dream about you all the time

And even if the moon fell down tonight,

There'd be nothing to worry about to worry about at all,

because you make the whole world shine

As long as you're here everything will be alright

I believe it was a tuesday when I caught your eye..

havent posted in the past two days.... nothing to say once again...


Once upon a timeI believe it was a TuesdayWhen I caught your eyeWe caught onto somethingI hold onto the nightYou looked me in the eyeAnd told me you loved meWere you just kidding?Cause it seems to meThis thing is breaking downWe almost never speakI don't feel welcome anymoreBaby what happenedPlease tell me cause one second it was perfectNow you're halfway out the doorAnd I stare, at the phoneHe still, hasn't calledAnd you feel so low you can't feel, nothing at allAnd you flashback to when he saidForever and alwaysOh, and it rains in your bedroom, everything is wrongIt rains when you're here and it rains when you're goneCause I was there when you saidForever and alwaysWas I out of line? Did I say something way to honest?Made you run and hide like a scared little boy?I looked into your eyes, thought I knew you for a minuteNow I'm not so sureSo heres to everythingComing down to nothingHeres to silenceThat cuts me to the coreWhere is this going?Thought I knew for a minute but I don't anymoreAnd I stare, at the phoneHe still, hasn't calledAnd you feel so low you can't feel, nothing at allAnd you flashback to when he saidForever and alwaysOh, and it rains in your bedroom, everything is wrongIt rains when you're here and it rains when you're goneCause I was there when you saidForever and alwaysDidn't mean it baby?I don't think soOhhhhhBack up, baby back upDid you forget everything?Back up, baby back upDid you forget everything?Cause it rains in your bedroom, everything is wrongIt rains when you're here and it rains when you're goneCause I was there when you saidForever and alwaysOh, I stare, at the phoneHe still, hasn't calledAnd you feel so low you can't feel, nothing at allAnd you flashback to when we saidForever and alwaysAnd it rains in your bedroom, everything is wrongIt rains when you're here and it rains when you're goneCause I was there when you saidForever and alwaysYou didn't mean it babyYou said forever and always

I can almost see it, That dream i'm dreaming.

Baseball game today:) I'm super excited. Whole night with my boyfriend!! I'm kinda scared itwill be freezing cold though, I'm praying for a heat wave.
But really, my body doesnt do well in cold weather, I think I mightve been an ice cube in another life, ahhaha.

Coach Drake's class is boring.. Computer lab all the time.

Im out.

I ran out of words for you...

Church was amazing. The reason I go to church is for God, Its not for boys and its not for the other stupid reasons you've been spreading. I dont go to sit with my friends, and talk while Jason is giving his message. Please Please PLEASE shut up. Leave it alone.

On a happier note, Today was a really good day, well despite the fact we lost: ( but oh well, The girls tried, or most of them did. Our student section kicked butt.. and Pork chops are greasy greasy.

How could you be so..

heartless!!

new favorite song.

Grad Smackdown game has disappeared, along with those possible bonus points. Woah, big let down there... I'm being completely serious.

I saw Friday the 13th last night, cried all the way home.. talk about scary... Axes and mishedies should stay in sheds, along with creepy old-little drowned boys.

So thanks to Jamie, Michell Davis (shown below) is my new hero. Seriously, funniest person I've never met. Youtube him.

Tomorrow is the girls game at Jaksonville, pretty excited. Whiteoutmuch? I will hopefully be driving to that game, otherwise i'll be finding a last minute ride, so If you see me on the side of the road with my thumb torwards the sky.. s l o w d o w n.

I'm tired of being in the computer lab and I've run out of things to write. Thanks to my forgetfulness my locker smells like s&h$%*.

Random thoughts:

MichelleDavis
PROM DRESS!
braces.. disappearing
lunch!!
Smackdown:(
Iloveyou.

Puppies that whine.

Im tired of this puppies. Taylor had puppies, btw taylor is a stray; anywho. Taylor had puppies, six to be exact. THEY WHINE! constantly and they're all fat, really fat, so all the baracades that use to keep them in one part of the house safely, well, now they just break right through like baby puppy godzillas. Jeez. f&$cis. that wasnt a bad word.

Okay.

Peace out.

Ive got nothing

to say.

I have nothing to feel guilty for..

Disagreed.
I don't feel bothered because through the whole thing I still managed to treat you like a real person, Which you cant say yourself. Stop saying you forgive me and youre praying for me, like its what everyone wants.. You are not better than anyone else, why dont you see that?

I hear its valentines day...

I wont be writing much, I am suppose to be getting ready actually.
Our girls won sub state, Game wednesday at 9 :) GO WILDCATS!!
School has gotten much better I am happy about that.
The date for my braces has been set.. how freaking awesome.
Tyler Sanford April 10th.
I AM SO EXCITED!


:)
Happy lovers day.

watch

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7XIsWPkVRBk

llama llama llama llama llama duck cheescake llama...

"You know those pictures of those emo kids, and everyones all awww?"

"theyre that."

-Jamie Mullins.

I was once a treehouse

I lived in a cake

But i never saw the way

the orange slayed the rake

I have nothing to write about.. Baskeyball game tonight with Jamie- Go wildcats..

Because she's so uh oh uh oh uh oh

I don't need your forgivness, and frankly I dont want it. I can get on with my life fine without you and I have been. I am happy now, much happier than I have been in a while. I love the feeling of being my own person and not having to worry about other peoples feelings. I dont care the reasons why we arent friends, and I never want to be your friend again. So while all of this has been giving you troubles sleeping at night; I haven't slept this good in years: )

A man of many companions may come to ruin, but there is a friend who sticks closer than a brother

Proverbs 18:24

A friend loves at all times, and a brother is born for adversity
Prov 17:17

A new command I give you: Love one another. As I have loved you, so you must love one another.
John 13:34

You got me..

Ive got nothing to write about today...

Computer lab.

Church tonight.

Peace:)

Marry me Kristian Stanfill?

Black. Hot pink? Black. Hot pink....

Today has been a day, Mom has a jewelry box that I would kill for.. seriously.

I am excited for this coming up end of week/weekend. I have tons of plans, and its gonna be fun: )

Thursday- I have an orthodontist appointment and an eye doctor appointment:))) I love love love my orthodontist. Friday- I am going to give away taylor's puppies and I am super excited!! Then Jamie and I are going to cleveland wearing anything BUT black;) Saturday- I have great plans, that I would rather not talk about:) Sunday- Grandmothers for lunch! and finally Monday- Jamie and I are going to Billy and Hunter's game, then the movies to see friday the 13th! Gosh, I am excited.

I get my braces off in less than two months now, or so he says:))

I have big plans when I get them off which I am sure you will all see:)))

GoodDay:)

Heres a fortune for your disaster..

Today was okay, It started off awful, I woke up really early really sick:/ so that was absolutely no fun.. But I went back to sleep and when I woke up around 12 I felt much better. Since I am going to Clevelands prom, Mom and I went prom dress shopping and I found the perfect one, I absolutely love it. So I am pretty happy that's finished with. I am going to the basketball games tonight with Billy, I'm pretty excited. The best part about today would most definitely be the weather though. I am a summer girl, all the way around, and the fact that its higher than 30 F I am super happy. I'm going to the beach for Spring Break and I cant wait to get a tan!! Then after that Were going June 24Th through July 4, I cant wait!!! Okay, well I am going to get ready for the games, but I have to take Bentley outside first:(

she's not the type of girl to wait by the phone. she
won't cry; she knows it'll get her nowhere. she'll laugh
a lot & often. and she'll live her own life. she'd like you
to be a part of it.. but she'll do just fine without you.

Rainboots and hand grenades

everything looks beautiful when you're young and pretty. the streets are paved with diamonds and there's just so much to see.

I've never been the type of person who is scared of new things, that's not my personality at all.
I have the memory of a goldfish, if not worse. Sometimes I consider that a good thing, like when I see something I wish I hadn't, but other times, when you cant remember what happened the night before, I hate it.
In a way I think it helps me to live life to the fullest, or at least my definition of fullest.
I've decided that I want to try something new, I'm not ready to let everyone know just what that is yet, but I'm pretty dang excited for it.
Compliments only go so far, and after a while they don't mean anything.
I remember when I was little how we all thought we were misunderstood and not treated like we were old enough, but i would give anything for those days.
I'm sure when I get older I'll see that My life now isn't as complicated as I think, but until I grow up and realize that, I'm fine with what I have.. even if it isn't much.
I know what goes around comes around; But, I also know, nobody deserves to be treated anything less than worthy.

You can't take that from me; Its all that you left thats mine..

I've got to breathe
You can't take that from me
Cause it's all that you left that's mine
You had to leave
And that's all I can see
But you told me your love was blind

There are times
You're so impossible that I should sign a waiver
And you will find Someone worth walking on when you ask me to go

I'll leave when the wind blows
Take a breath and there it goes
I'll be outside of your window
I'll pass by but I'll go slow
I'll leave when the wind blows

There was a day
You threw our love away
Then you passed it to someone new
You wanna stay
But since you wanna play

We can finally say we're through

There are times you're so impossible and you ask me to go

I'll leave when the wind blows
Take a breath and there it goes
I'll be outside of your window
I'll pass by but I'll go slow
I'll leave when the wind blows
You can scream there's just echoes
Pass outside of your window

You'll be sad that you let me go
I'll leave but just know

As I lay in solitude
Oh What's a boy supposed to do
I Shake the very thought of you
Me together, I remember
Late nights when I stayed up late
All I do is wait and wait
Your never coming home to me
That's the hardest thing to see

I got to breathe You can't take that from me We can finally say we're through

I'll leave when the wind blows
Take a breath and there it goes
I'll be outside of your window
I'll pass by but I'll go slow
I'll leave when the wind blows

You can scream there's just echoes
Pass outside of your window
You'll be sad that you let me go
On every face you'll ever know
And everywhere you ever go
You'll feel when the wind blows

So let me think of how to word it. Is it too soon to say perfect?

Today really isn't even a day worth talking about.. School was school.
Tonight i've got big plans that im really excited about..
and tomorrow is WinterJam 2009!
Too bad Hawk Nelson isn't showing.. Dang losers.
Mom got Wicked tickets yesterday; So, Im super excited about that!
Prom is April 4th, which gives me less than 2 months to find a dress.
It should be fun though, im finally starting to be excited about it rather than dreading it.
Things are really looking up for me, and I couldnt be more relieved: )

She paints on her cute synthetic personality, wasting all the hours on things she'll never be.

before you judge me, take a good look at you,
don’t you have anything better to do?
Seems to me you’re a little slow to understand,
Ignorance and jealousy go hand in hand

Truth be told I miss you; Truth be told Im lying.

Give it up. I have what I need. Its not you, Leave me alone!!

"Don't believe everything you hear"

Just because you and your small group of "real friends" (one that you cant stand) dont like me, it doesn't mean people want me to go away. I'm not going anywhere:) I said the preacher, not my preacher, read it again you'll see that. One question- If you don't like me so much and nobody likes me, answer me this, Why are you reading what I have to say? hahahaa. You sit in almost every class and talk about how your brother drinks and your dad does drugs, And you say things like "Ill kill my family" and all this crap, then you go and your all "I love Dr.Seuss, he's the man" then people bring it to your attention that hes a drunk and does drugs and you says its okay because he's Dr.Seuss. talk about a hypocrite. Keep talking about how I'm not a christian, you act like You re the only one allowed to follow God, newsflash, You're not. I'll go to church and I'll listen to the preacher because I need God. If you took the time to read that bible you carry around everyday you'd see that the things you re doing are wrong. I'm not going to sit here and tell you whats wrong with you because I don't condemn people, figure it out yourself; AND until you go to church with me, and see how I act you cant say that I only go there for guys because I don't, Anyone there can tell you that.

"You know you re better than that, You know you are."

Today has been..

Well its been a day. I think everyone has a turning point in their life, which can affect you in a good way or a bad way.. Depending on how you look at it.. At first I thought.. Bad.. and now I'm seeing... Very good. Through everything I have come to realize the things that never were important, are very important, and will always be important. I have an amazing life, and no one can take that away from me. I have an amazing family that can stick together through the absolute hardest times.. I love my sisters more than anything, and I know we'll always be close.. I wont even waste my time talking about my friends.. Actually.. I have great friends, and if it takes times like these to show me that, then I'm so fortunate for times like these. I have a boyfriend, Billy Wallace, who I absolutely adore! Rumors are rumors.. no matter which way you look at them. People will come and people will leave, i understand that. People you're sure you'll have forever can be gone in two hours.. I understand that too. No matter what people think of me, I know the truth. I know who I am and what I have done.. By going to church every week I'm not trying to put on a show or make people believe anything I'm trying to sell, I go because I need God. I need him so much and I'm not ashamed to admit it. We had a lesson a couple of weeks ago about how you will go through hard times, and these times will define your life. He kept saying if you're not in these times now you will be, to take his lesson and put it in your back pocket because you're gonna need it. I'm so glad that I held onto what he taught that night... Friends will come and they'll go. things will happen you never thought would happen to you in a million years, but these things that are happening to me are happening for a reason. Jason closes all the time by saying "if you don't leave with anything tonight I want you to get this.." that night he said "If you don't understand a thing tonight, Understand this- Jesus is all you need. You don't need friends, you don't need school, You need him and that's it. So no matter how bad your life is going God is always there, and he wants you just as bad as you want him." Last week we talked about how if we want change in our lives all we have to do is give our life to him.. Give him everything because he is so much bigger than all this. I have given everything to him.. and I couldn't be more ready for change. I have everything I need.. thats for certain. Im not trying to put on an "innocent girl" act. I dont need anyone to believe it, The only person that matters to me right now knows the truth, and thats more than enough for me.