Ive been roaming around always looking down at all I see.

"I want him. I don't even think he's perfect anymore
and I still want him."
- Wicked


Those words seemed so sincere
and I've been so lonely here.


"You know I used to spend every day thinking about you
and dreaming about you, and everytime you walked by
I lost myself, do you know what that feels like? And you
couldn’t possibly know what it feels like to have that person
not have the same feelings back. Look, I'm sorry if you
miss the way I looked at you, but i dont miss the way you
never looked at me."

She laid her heart and soul right in

your hands, and you stole her every

dream, you crushed her plans.

She never even knew she had a choice,

& that's what happens when the

only voice she hears is tellin' her she can't.

You stupid boy.

-Stupid Boy; Keith Urban

I wasn't happy about them breaking up. not at all.
I never once thought that it meant she might start liking me.
all I cared about was the fact that she got really hurt.
and I guess I realized at that moment that I really do love her.
because there was nothing to gain and that didn't matter.
the perks of being a wallflower; stephen chbosky





Whats your biggest fear? being forgotten.

Cant live cant breathe with no air

I have so much to tell you.

Some things make her cry.

Sometimes she thinks she's strong, sometimes she thinks she's gone, past the point of feeling anything at all. Sometimes she's sure she's crazy. Sometimes she feels like maybe the only way to survive is to stay angry. And that works fine most of the time, but some things make her cry.. like Bruce Springsteen, silver Sebrings, eggs scrambled hard, home-made birthday cards. A gray sweatshirt over faded jeans with a hole in the pocket where a wallet's supposed to be. Blue sheets on an unmade bed, strong shoulders with a summer tan and rain in the headlights. Yeah, some things make her cry. She didn't shed a tear when he left her here, November 21st of last year. She said she'd be just fine, but maybe she lied cause some things make her cry.. like drive-in movies, oatmeal cookies, 49'ers, all night diners. Blue eyes under a red ball cap, waking up alone at 3AM. Icy streets, New Year's Eve, falling asleep on a brown love seat and runway lights.

Yeah, some things make me cry.

At last I can see life has been patiently waiting for me. And I know there's no guarantees, but I'm not alone. There comes a time in everyone's life when all you can see are the years passing by. And I have made up my mind that those days are gone.

Something Inside me makes me wanna dance..

Im over this.
Its okat that you dont want me, or youre playing your little hard to get game, Thats fine.
Ill get over this, I have before. And just like last time, Ill say it again.
Dont come back.
Dont want me.
Thats all I need from you, no apologies, no goodbyes.
Just leave.
Leave and stay gone.

biggest fan

Staring at the stars like they hold some kind of answer
I guess you weren't the only one who had a chance here

I was fooling myself in hopes of fooling you too
Im not as tough as I talk but you know that's nothing new

We talked about dreams and stupid big time plans
and now all you should know, Is I'm still your biggest fan

You saw through my story, and I thank god you did
I'm glad we both see now, im still a little kid

You helped me grown up, if only at sixteen
I realize who I am now, I realize what you mean

there's reasons I don't reply, reasons I don't say yes,
The reasons are fairly obvious, you'd get it on the first guess

I take to heart the things you said, and all I said was true
I'm finally at a point, where I can say this is through.

A different world.

You are the reason I wake up, the very reason for my day,
This isn't going to be easy, Its just the things I need to say

You have to realize what youre doing, you have to realize it alone
the thought of you coming back, the thought of how much we've grown..

You know I think youre gorgeous, but thats not even almost the thing..
I know soon you'll be in my driveway, thats when my phone will start to ring..

So we'll watch the stars together, and tell secrets about our life..
knowing tomorrow it'll all be forgotten, is like being stabbed by a knife.

I can deal with the having fun, I cant deal without your smile,
Please try not to be vain, youre not the best boy in my file.

I knew we'd never be much, but I dont count this as a waste
I would've stayed for the whole meal, but you only wanted a taste.

You think Im the one losing, like youre getting off scotch free..
but soon enough you'll realize, youre the one who's missing me.

If all you got out of this was a different impression of a girl,
I hope thats a lesson you held, you saw a different world.

of all the things..

I know how you feel, and I completely agree
the things that we do, cant be things that they see
I'm feeling it too, and its not fair to think
all that we've had can be gone in a blink
The thought of this being over is saddening at best
just know that this will not be forgotten and you will be missed
Watching the stars, I'd rather watch you
I cant believe what you're saying, of course i love you too.
I guess we'll mark this up, wrong place, wrong time
But its not like what we're doing is the worst of all crimes.
You are an incredible person, inside as well as out
You said we'd make it some day, I believe it without a doubt.